Anger 💢

A shadow of me you have become

I can’t seem to walk pass a mirror with out seeing you walk side by side with me.

A ranging hot air that fillss my nostrils when i set my eyes on you, with every memory of pain i recall in which you brought on me , as i was just a youth  trying to give love.

Just a weapon 🔫 a pistol preferably with seven bullets and I promise to empty all aiming at your hippocampus in your brain.

I burn with so much anger and hatred at your sight, you make the air so thin for me to breathe, my bronchial struggles to get air just to your existence.

I am like a smoker in need of an inhaler. I burn my self out of pain because I can’t act out on the hatred I feel for you.

Just a quick meeting with you and I’d definitely remember to come with my pistol I promise this time I won’t miss a shot,

I swear I don’t want you dead , just an equal share of all the pain, tears and emotions I have ever felt for 4 years with you exciting around me, can you rest¿ not rest in peace but rest in agony, because what a beast you have become with each passing day , don’t hide in the shadow of a good son because you seem far from being a good son to your dad and the worst sibling to your brothers.

One minute I’m afraid to say I forgive you, then I pray for strength to et the past and pain go away so I can look at you with zero hate. With that prayer making it’s way to heavens gate to be answered you strike again with more wickedness and zero emotions to give a fk on what wrong you caused. Mr good man or should I say Mr perfect,  nothing wrong can be done by you. Never! A perfect brother you are.

I’m sorry and not sorry but I hate you with every cells running down my bone marrow. I pray it changes or maybe it never changes because you deserve the worst of  pain. I sincerely pray you never know what love ever feels like… you forever have to ‘manage’ your spouse forever.