You and I
On a chill evening
With our fingers intertwined
Walking side by side.
Two sweet couples, hand in hand,
Strolling down the rose path, in a loving land.
Our footsteps gentle, our hearts 💕 beating fast,
Our love shines brighter, with every step at last.
Our eyes locked on each other, our souls entwined,
Our love😍 becomes one, in this romantic find.
The roses 🌹 bloom around us, a sweet, tender hue, 🤗
A perfect backdrop, for our love, pure and true.🥺
A sudden love, here to heal and revamp.
Hold my hands and dive into a glimpse of my happiness in this year. You have been in my life, but I just didn’t notice yet. Or maybe we both didn’t know what the next feelings would be.
In our own worlds, we let our hearts out in the open without guarantee of how safe the outsideworld is.. I find you saying hi and complementing me on that faithful day. I felt butterflies in my belly one I can’t seem to kill. From one complents to another, we got fond of each other, joking and flirting all through the night. And in most cases fighting and disagreeing to why we don’t seem to connect. Or why we shouldn’t be doing this.
But here you are saying those very words without mincing words. You let it all out a little way of reassurance. Because we consider it too early to *love* just yet,then we say ” I cherish you” words of hope and happiness.
In the dark days of my 365days you gave me reasons to smile. Days to blush and laughters we have shared together. You have proven that I am deserving of love and light, and you are deserving of respect and words and actions that nurture your heart and body.
We may have no name tag or be stucked in a situationship but we both love this s much that we can’t let go. And the fear of increasing our love for each other.
A feeling I’d never wish it end. A feeling of love, light and hope . I cherish you Ure m 😍 ( as you foundly call me)
“Can we build something holy not because we pretend to be flawless but because we see the DIVINE in every crack” 🥹🥹
Is it too much to ask for christ-centered relationship where my faith isn’t a burden on your shoulders. But a light we both walk towards, where I don’t have to force my belief unto you. I don’t have to preach every verse like a battle cry because love doesn’t need coercion, it needs space to bloom, grace to stumble upon.
I want us to love each other not as perfect beings but as perfect us every floor brushstrokes on the canvas of who we are together and every mistake a lesson painted in grace.
Can we build something holy not because we pretend to be flawless but because we see the divine in every crack, is it too much to ask for a love that bows before christ without shaming where we have been, a love that forgives, a love that grows 1st corinthians 13 vs 4 to 8.
I am not looking for perfection, I am looking for partnership, for prayers and whispered together, for hands held through doubt and for the quiet knowing that we don’t have to be perfect. Because HIS love makes us enough, and enough with the sextual desires and the need to want to have what others enjoy, can we just love what we ask G-D to give us without any conditions.
And suspect realising that he doesn’t need to ask G-D who he wants when he already knows from his heart. I just want to love you a hundred percent to share this moment with you, this fleeting eternity.
That is to know G-D already answered, that his answer wasn’t a voice but a feeling, and tha feeing being YOU.
Not like the last but promises to be better.
phewwww… its the first of the month, the last month to wrap up this year, its been roses and thons, a lot of thons,that didn’t fail to leave me with a cut. oh jezzzz, how I loved the idea of a new year last December, if I knew what a mess this year would bring I wouldn’t even be happy by January. goodness lord what a year it has been, a never-ending long year, began with joy, gladness, happy days, to a dark cloud, the death of my ex memories, the tears of emotional pain and regret, self harming, being ignored and treated as less, to finding my glimpse of light again, starting a new profitable brand, to working with God, to biggest encounter with the holy spirit, to knowing my maker and why HE called me, to learning 2 high paying skills, to meeting genuine friends, then fighting for my live in the hospital, to almost having my first surgery, to almost loosing my breath, being kept on oxygen, and finally to starting out my own vlog channel on YT, to hitting my 1st big GIG to monitizing my 2 high paying skills learnt, and lastly getting my new gadgets.
I kid you not this year has been a lot more blessing than pain, but the pain just can’t be ignored, can it? well, I am going to mourn the death of my ex for a while, the year ends the mourning days .
Cheers 🥂 to a December I do not not plan to fgert without a fuss.
In slumber’s realm, I see your face,
A fleeting glimpse, a haunting pace.
My heart skips beats, my soul feels torn,
Longing to reach out, yet afraid to mourn.
Dreams bridge the gap, a bittersweet refrain,
Memories of you, an aching strain.
I miss the laughter, the tears, the fights,
Every moment, a lingering light.
Your smile, a radiant sunrise glow,
Your eyes, a depth I’d gladly know.
Your touch, a spark that sets me free,
Your voice, a melody echoing me.
But fear holds me back, a hesitant heart,
Afraid to rekindle, or never to part.
What if the flame that once burned bright,
Flickers out, leaving only night?
Yet, in dreams, our love remains alive,
A bittersweet reminder, a lingering drive.
To reach out, to reconnect, to share,
The memories we forged, the love we once declared.
The ocean’s waves caress the shore,
Just as the heat of your soft skin caress my body, in the memory of my heart, I hear your words in my ears, a soothing melody, forever more.
Deep blue waters, as deep as the memory of our love, vast and wide,A treasure trove, where secrets reside.
The tides rise high, the tides fall low, in the memory of our love, somedays our love rise high and other days tides fall low, A rhythm that never gets old.
A constant rhythm, my heart’s sweet glow.
The salty scent, the seaweed’s sway, Inviting dreams, on a summer’s day.
Within its depths of our memories, our world is found,
Where love reside, and peace resound.
The ocean’s roar, a lullaby sweet,As the moon’s light, on its surface meets.
The waves’ a gentle touch, on sandy ground,
My lover’s caress, without a sound. The ocean’s beauty, pure and true,
A reflection, of our love anew.
In its embrace, I find my peace,
A sense of calm, my soul’s release.
The ocean’s vastness, I adore,
A treasure, forever in store.
Guard your time- Don’t let people waste your time on things that don’t benefit you.
Don’t reveal your weekends easily- Be careful about who you trust with personal information.
Control your emotions- Never let others manipulate you by getting a rise out of you.
Keep learning and evolving- Continous self-improvement keeps you sharp and hard to fool.
Set boundaries- Make sure people respect your limits and space.
Spak less observe more- You gain more insight when you listen carefully.
Trust actions not words- People’s behaviour reveals more than their promises.
Stay financially independent- Never depend on others for your livelihood.
Don’t chase people- Value yourself enough to walk away from anyone who doesn’t respect you.
Be decisive- Indecision can make you seem weak and easy to manipulate.
It’s a new month in few mins…
Seating in my room, and smilking so hard, it says that time heals. Heyyyy! It’s been 9 months already. Have I healed from the pain and trauma yet? Oh well i guess I can confidently say I have lost interest. In everything we loved to do together. I have unlocked new personalities in my self that I am learning to understand each day.
Proud of my recovery and the time so far. Do I miss you? Do I miss those moments? I am sorry 🙏 but I just don’t care about that past. I have gotten better hiding away those feelings and living my present. 9 months, looking forward to finishing the year without you. Remember last December, lol 😂 those words we said to each other, daily texting, promises and vows. Rings a bell right? This December I’d be doing it with someone else… sike 😂 am done moarning those feelings, done crying over spilled milk. Done watering a dry soil.
Can’t wait to send out my IV soon, ensuring you receive it. Just saying time dosnt heal but God does. I loved you. And those memories are out in my trash it’s time to proceed with a new beginning. Happy New months to my future 🔮. AND MAY THE OLD MOON AND IT CURSES COME TO AN END IN MY LIFE AND MAY THE NEW MOON AND IT BLESSINGS COME TO A MANIFESTATION IN MY LIFE. AMEN
There’s a sacroiliac joint between forgiveness and revenge
A strong feeling i get in my synovial joints to share the pain he caused me.
To ensure it reaches every edge of his veins and vessels.
But a gentle dove 🕊 I have become, to crave peace seem to be a brand new feature in me.
As gentle as a flowing hill-top, not to let my anger sink in me for as long as 7 hrs.
The heaviness and bitterness anger comes with, and guilt to pay back and not go down without a fight.
An unnecessary feelings from the devil
As he is casually laughing behind my back as I self harm to let go of my pain, because I have choosen not to hurt my oppressors
But come to think of it , does it ever end? The feeling of pain and emotional anxiety?
The reassurance I get from speaking to my maker, counsellor and comforter, A feeling that says the storm is strong but I AM HERE TO CALM IT ALL DOWN. Now sleep my child, and be at peace for vengeance is of the LORD and FORGIVENESS IS DIVINE 🔮.
The act of letting go
How many aura do I loose when I still call him from no caller ID just to hear his voice.
Your voice are like a cooling rhythm of hope in my head, indeed we don’t talk anymore, indeed I don’t know if I’m still attached, the question is what exactly should I be attached to? I do not recognise this you, I do not understand who you are, yet I still yearn to hear your voice, in the cold night as you say “hello” hello” hello who is this? Then i hurriedly go ahead to hang up, and cry myself to sleep. Your voice are as my daily routine supplement, necessary to keep my mind at peace. Maybe not words of reassurance. But words that says I am still alive and coming for you soon omah(my translation of your voice) .
I just don’t ever learn, you might say I am obsessed or It’s just a toxical attachment. But I am sick of this feelings , and I want it to end. But I find myself going through my contact just to search for your name and call again , I havnt even mustered the courage to say hi at least.
I await the day I’d say I don’t know Jim, and I don’t have any feelings for him anymore and this would be words of truth and not self convictions.
MEDMIMI