Embracing your feminine will

Breaking free from what makes sense and discovering your feminine power.

The most expected perfect creature are always the female gender. Not throwing shades at the opposite gender here.

In the world today we all love our mothers ( female) our mothers are the most gentle creatures, role model to their kids, hold the family together, the praying pillar in the family the first teacher to their babies and every word that describes perfection should be used to describe the (female) mothers.

What happens to our feminine power, what happens to embrace the will to go out of what makes sense, what happens to our happiness?

Let’s take a stroll to story time…

Being in love is beautiful, but still having feelings for my ex boyfriend is dangerous for my perfect marriage. I have a beautiful home, very handsome husband and my two beautiful kids ( Nethan and Ellarie) . My husband is the perfect man every Lady out there would want to settle down with. He is a sophisticated insurance manager in Bells company. Money everywhere !!!( yeah! You can scream that again) he is financially buoyant.

My son on the other hands is 6 years of age, handsome and gentle ( he is at the stage where a perfect family to train him is all that is required).

My little Ellarie is 6 months and I am feeding her on exclusive breastmilk. In essence, I am a full time mum, building my family and making everyone happy. My family is where I belong because I love them so much but something is missing. Oh no my sex life with hubby is excellent.

Okay I am gonna cut the trap now! My sex life is in no where perfect. I don’t know what’s wrong but I can’t get my ex-boyfriend out of my mind. It’s been 8 years now and I remember every beautiful and ugly moment I had with him. In my daily journal I write every great intimate moment I ever had with Brad.

Brad is hot and sexy, his desire and the way he yawns for me is everything I love, Brad and I stayed together for 4 years ( with lots of fights, break up and happy moment) To be honest I have never felt more in love than the way Brad made me feel in the past. Every day we have sex I find ever new reasons to love him over and over again. ( little confession I have never enjoyed sex with anyone in my life the way I enjoy it with Brad) don’t judge me, before I met Jason I was into the world having fun with diffrent guys and that was my example of an independent woman. No one was there to tell me what to do or who to fu*k. Of cos Jason knows the type of life I lived before now and knows the stories of all my exes yet he wanted to build a home with me because of the love we have for each other.

In the early morning of today, Jason got up early to prep for work while I made breakfast for him and prep Nethan for creche. I turned on my laptop to get some fantasies of Brad off my mind and I left to check something on the gas cooker ( it’s skipped my mind that my laptop was left turned on).

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Jason washed off and came to the bedroom to quickly get dressed on his attempt to turn off my laptop he hovered around my journal about Brad and he sat down to read every sexy fantasies I had written, he read how Brad has had sex with me everywhere of his cribs, his studio, the bathroom, the pool, and the elevator. He read how I think about Brad everyday of our marriage. How I visualize having sex with brad just to maybe enjoy sex with him. Rushing to the bedroom at the slight secs I realized I left my laptop turned on. I saw jason glued to my screen and he left quietly, just quickly got dressed for work and left the apartment.

Now I am here trying to figure what wrong has this journal caused me and what bad it has done to my 8 years of marriage now

I have to reassure Jason and also forget about Brad for good. How do I do this when Brad wants a second chance for us to bring our young youth marriage dreams a reality. But I can’t give up my perfect family to go back to my Ex boyfriend even after Brad propose to me and asking for a chance. I love my perfect Jason but how about my sexy ex boyfriend…

Back to Reality…

What happens to having a happy home, having the perfect marriage and enjoying the perfect intimate moment with your husbands? Being regarded as a mother to my kids and a mother to my husband. what happens to being regarded as a wife or a partner to my husband?

To my gender, embrace your feminine power at all time, discover HOW TO MAKE SENSE FROM WHAT DOSNT MAKE SENSE IN THE SOCIETY. Appreciate your feminity, embrace your vulnerability, use your feminine power and get what you really desire and while you aiming at what you desire endeavour its what makes you happy. If you must prioritize your family happiness do that a your detriment and enjoy a life with so much regret.

scrolling through the gram last week I hoped on a post that questioned the female gender to ask ” What do females bring to the table in marriage”

You bring life my girl, You nurture and bring a whole creature ( living thing) to the table, you bring emotional support, you bring a heart of love and care, you bring a strong pillar of prayers holding your family in the war room is what you bring to the table, my girl. You deserve Happiness as the least of all good things you are deserving of. EMBRACE YOUR FEMININE WILL TO BE TREATED THE RIGHT WAY AND DO NOT SETTLE FOR WHAT DOSNT BRING GENUINE HAPPINESS TO YOU.

Until next time lovies😍 xoxo ❤️