I wish I had the balls to say a proper good bye.
I’m excited to go home to be with my family but I’m leaving uni without saying a proper good bye to my family here in school.
My mouth is tightly shut like I’m charged for how many words that proceeds out of My buccalcavity in a day. They say speak out , or speak to someone but that’s something you would never catch me do. I’m so string and it’s painful, I’m absorbing so much that I know one day I’d burst. I’m in so much pain but I’d eat rice tonight and smile. Because people care about me, but I’m tired of always being the one with problems or opening up.
Now here’s a thing they say after graduation you will start working and your parent would rest from having to provide for you, and there’s me with all skills but a madter of none and willing to learn more. Also me that wants to be a surgeon, and I’m stuck at trying to find a job to carry my siblings and in school and kill my dream, a decision I’d always leave to regret. But, who’s gonna handle the bills of medical school now.
I have a dream, I have got plans but I’m exhausted in holding on, I’m drained , and I am tired and ready to let go , cry and breath a different kind of air.
I’m so scared to open up, to tell my friends or a friend about how I feel, I’m emotionally unavailable for love and yet I believe in true love , but I’m exhausted and hanging in here till my high school sweetheart comes for my hands in marriage.
Oh God, I’m tired 😫
MEDMIMI 